Back in May of 2017, I wrote a post called "Again" in response to an act of mass violence, and numerous times since then I have made at least brief comments about these events. On most of the occasions, it has seemed that so much was being said by so many, that there was little healing to be had in adding to the cacophony. Yet today some thoughts were on my mind upon awakening, so I'll do my best to share them, not in the spirit of fixing the problem or blaming or solving...just, what would shift the conflict energy that we are stuck in?
We all know this deep down -- there can be little success trying to fix what is outside ourselves. The only true solutions are within each of us individually. Are we at peace with ourselves, with friends and family? Are we at peace with the kind of work we do, how we live, how we spend time? Are we at peace with absolutely every nook and cranny of our lives, and with our larger history? There are personal places I get stuck, some of which I have spoken about in this blog, and then in the larger history of our country and the world, which I don't speak about as often. What inwardly causes me the most pain is to face the violence of the early "settlement" of North America, the revolution that bought our "freedom", and the violence of the move westward. The violence toward the people, plants, and non-human beings new settlers encountered, the violence inherent in the creation of roads, dams, cities, train tracks and mines. The violence toward the earth Herself. The violence in our political, economic, social, and medical systems and our language. The violence (real and diplomatically muffled) in our relationships with the rest of the world. The violence in our sports and "play", the violence in how we produce food and other manufactured items, and the violence in our relationships with the deep oceans and vast outer space.
This is a yes-based universe, I am sure of it (I think this is an Abraham-Hicks-ism). So it's hard for me to see how anger and blame expressed outward -- even understandable movements for specific changes -- will cause the desired effect, especially in this Age of Aquarius. If the energy of a response is itself too violent or confrontational, it is likely to beget more violence and confrontation. What may shift the energy, though, will be for individuals to look inward, and really look honestly at the ways in which conflict and violence are part of our communal history as well as our own personal stories. Look unflinchingly. Accept the reality. Do whatever work we need to do to heal our personal trauma and pain, so that our role as a ripple effect will end. Then move ahead with a complete and utter commitment to harmony in every area of life. Not everyone can do this. Some may have to keep fighting -- this may be the divine agreement they made before this incarnation. But some of us have already released "the fight", and more and more will do the same every day as this Age continues. As higher levels of Love enter our universe, the violence around us may seem to be becoming more frenzied, but before long, it will wilt and die from lack of oxygen. There will be too much Love.
Yesterday, I sent photos of beauty to my friends in Minnesota who I knew might be particularly distressed right now. I had been to Schenectady's rose garden, and so mostly I sent pictures of roses. Making the choice to spread beauty in this moment was just about all I could do. Again, again.
