Yesterday's most remarkable event was the fact that the day started with a rainbow, and ended with one as well. The early morning one came almost immediately after a rather strange 6AM sunrise, orange in color (not red). The heavens opened, and yet the low-hanging sun remained clear of clouds, leading to a rather faint rainbow to the southwest, amidst the raindrops. And the reverse situation happened about an hour before sunset, this time producing a much sharper rainbow with two visible "ends". It's always exciting, even at my age, to see the end of the rainbow!
I look back this morning, wondering what this particular portal signified, and I'm not sure. I wrote a blog post yesterday (for those of you keeping up with this temporary daily schedule, thanks!), agonized a bit about my future (very old paradigm!) and then saw the movie "The Devil Wears Prada 2". It, too, was very old paradigm, at least for me. Not only were there scenes near the old Time and Life Building on 6th Avenue, where I worked in the '80's, but I found the characters' pursuit of wealth and power actively off-putting (where in the past I might just have found it mystifying). It's hard for me to deal with scheming and manipulation, and overall, I couldn't find it funny or interesting. When Meryl Streep's character says words to the effect that she loves her work, I'm glad for her, but I know that I never would have loved a career like that. And that is OK. It's all so glamorous and so fragile. I still grapple with shame at not having "succeeded" in a small or big way, but at this point I have very few regrets. Ah well, the film provided a few moments of humor, and a short vacation to the Big Apple and Milan!
Today will be rainy, morning to night. Probably not one peek of rainbow-creating sunshine, so I'll have to find the light within. Blessings, friends.
