Tomorrow, August 8, is the ten year anniversary of this blog. I'm so proud of this accomplishment. It is perhaps (along with my early efforts to open up the world of English cathedral music to myself and other girls and women) my greatest achievement. I have grown and changed so much this last decade...and of course my life hasn't brought me success, renown or income! Some days, it takes a great deal of courage to continue on at 69.
But I hope to do just that. And moving forward, my goal is to make these posts increasingly Goddess- (and Aquarian Age-) aligned. Before I do that, there is one last bit of negative, "old" business I want to tackle, one last duality-based word that comes to me almost from the moment I wake until the moment I fall asleep: "affront".
The other day, as I waited for a friend to check out at a pharmacy, I found myself crammed in between two metal carousels of plastic toys, each wrapped in plastic. Within seconds, I was envisioning all these toys -- and most of the thousands of other plastic items in this one store -- bobbing around as trash in the ocean. I had to physically restrain myself from screaming like a banshee and running from the building.
If plastic were the only thing I find offensive about modern life, that would be my "cause", but it isn't the only thing. In fact, as I have alluded to before, it is hard for me to find any aspect of our modern world that isn't an affront to what I believe are the values of the Goddess. The list is almost endless: war, weapons, conflict of all kinds, development sprawl, toxic chemicals, power over, profit...I mean, at the very least it is all an insult to me, which is probably why I have functioned so poorly. When I try to imagine the Great Mother's expanded vantage point on it all, it takes my breath away. For thousands of years, we did not take Her needs and wellbeing into consideration -- so of course this neglect has led to this overheated, shaking moment. Affront after affront after affront, a train of pain, roaring down the track with no brakes.
And of course, to those who see it all differently, I am the affront. I am the one who never bought into the norm.
In the larger picture, I don't worry about any of it. Love is going to take care of revealing what needs healing, and She will have the "last word" to catalyze that healing. Who-fought-who and what-was-an-affront-to-whom will no longer matter in upcoming years. We are leaving that place of duality and conflict, heck, we are leaving history, almost literally. But if people wonder what went wrong, why is all of this happening, all they need to do is go to the store and look at the plastic. Really look at it as future garbage. We didn't think ahead, and we thought we could keep out-inventing all our problems. But that wasn't possible, and the moment of truth has finally come. So it is time to let go, and let the Goddess repaint this picture.
A new era beginneth, just in time for a new decade of writing. And a fresh new way of being. Time to shrug off these old affronts, and simply glory in being at one with Love.
