It's not surprising to me that this week is supposed to be one of the most powerful ones ever, according to astrologers. That it is happening right on the other side of my 70th birthday is also not surprising.
Here is how it is manifesting for me. It's like a complete lull, more empty than any other I remember experiencing. I have thrown away or recycled so much stuff (I found another small "mother lode" the other day that was emotional to go through) and this coming weekend, I'm emptying all the rest of the boxes (only about six now) and making sure things are actually organized within them. I struggled to find something to write about today...that has never been a problem! My usual books don't thrill me, and I cannot get excited over crosswords or other word puzzles. I watched "Jeopardy" the other day for the first time in months, and it was so based on "old paradigm" facts that I couldn't bear it. As for everything in the news, it, too, feels like "history" -- it's over. And even the peeps I've been listening to online for thoughts about where we are headed aren't giving me much information that I don't already know. I guess I am as prepared for what is to come as I'll ever be...
The challenge going through one of these lulls, especially at a time like this, is really, really believing that one's true destiny is on the other side. We humans want to fit into an existing pattern, don't we? We want to know what the pattern is, or is going to be, and at least try to conform to it, but in this case, I think the changes are of such a magnitude that we cannot visualize, or plan, or make lists, or any of the classic left brain things we have been taught. We cannot use our life up until now to imagine the future. That's the whole point. This shift is monumental, and right-brained. The pattern will flow out from within us. What may help is aligning with feelings, or very basic inner centering, and Love. I still know what I love -- the real center of the bull's eye -- so all I can do is be in that bull's eye and be pierced by Love and immersed in it. I think this lull is about waiting for the arrow to come my way...at least, today, that's the only way I can describe it! Perhaps I sound like one of those medieval nuns, and if so, it makes this New Age nun smile!
