Ultimately, I had no say last Thursday and probably ought to stay out of the world’s intensive chorus of commentary. Some of the spiritual lessons in all this are revealing, but analysis of this at such a traumatic moment, unbidden, could be quite unhelpful. My one effort to do that in an email to an English friend may have fallen quite flat, so no more of that. I do think, however, that it is entirely appropriate to speak to the tsunami that has washed over my own life. I mean, only a few weeks ago I finally managed to fully embrace my passion for choral evensong and English history, art, landscape, and literature, and to move beyond the family, practical, and other inner and outer considerations that have kept me for half a century from fully committing to what I love or being in my element. As some of you know from this blog, I’ve worked through a long process of accepting, “these are the things that interest me, and so many other things do not.” Now this. It’s huge. The way forward at least “felt” somewhat clear and joyful a week or so ago, but now, the fog has moved back in, as it has far more intensively for people across the Atlantic. I’m back to wishing, as I often have, that my life dream had been to run a bed and breakfast or go to law school, something with a more straightforward process. And yet that would not have been me.
The only
“energy” in the Universe is Love. On
some level that we cannot understand, the world’s current volatility is bringing
all of us to a higher experience of Love. It may not seem like it today, but if I can remind myself of that
tonight, maybe I’ll move up the scale from four to five hours of sleep. I need
it. I’m exhausted. And I’m probably
getting far more sleep than my British friends!