One was major. Big. Huge. It was almost like walking onto Times Square, looking up at a billboard, and seeing three words large as life and knowing instantaneously that they are the belief system that has held you back, probably throughout this lifetime and even earlier ones. I could see how this belief has steered many decisions I have made, and magnetized most of my life experiences. It is so big that some of the things I was on the verge of talking about in this blog may have to wait; I know I am going to need some help from a compassionate counselor or spiritual advisor to walk through upcoming weeks, and articulate a new, more constructive and self-loving core concept. I also want to give thought to how this discovery might help me help others.
The gift of it is that I already feel lighter. I know I can change the belief, and I am already catching myself just as soon as I fall back on it, Eeyore-like. As a first step, I'm just gently reminding myself that this belief is being updated. New "site" under construction.
If this revelation had come to me in time, I could have gone to reunion after all, and proudly held up a sign saying, "I've finally identified the personal belief that has been holding me back all these years!" For a lot of alums, that might have been considered just as tangible and desirable as a house, a career, and a car. Ah well, just wait till our 45th or 50th...
When I can, I'll tell you the three words, and, more importantly, the re-write.
