We had a really hard freeze last night, so when I went on my early morning walk, the leaves were falling from the trees like enormous snowflakes. It always amazes me how some flowers and trees survive those first few light frosts and freezes, but the moment comes -- a tipping point, perhaps. This seems to be a tipping point in so many ways, but one specific one is on my mind today.
The other day, I mentioned some of the people whose videos I am listening to online, and this morning I realized something important. It has taken me 69 years to find people whose work I believe in, even, in some cases, enthusiastically admire. I believed in the world of English cathedral music and wanted so much to be part of it, but I was prevented by being a woman -- and the situation was further complicated by the fact that I wasn't theologically on the same page. Even if I had ever made it into that field, my not really being Christian would have been a literal block to it being work I believed in. During the years when I tried to make a living as an artist, the problem was that, as good as I was at it, I wasn't completely passionate. I did believe in art and in the people who make a living making the world a more beautiful place, but it was not enough of a major personal enthusiasm to sustain a career.
And until recently, I wasn't aware of who was speaking for the Goddess/Great Mother/Divine Feminine in anything like the same way I have been trying to. Now, that has changed...so I realize that this is the first time in my life that I have seen models in front of me of work I believe in! Amazing. This is allowing me to more fully embrace my own life and work over the years, my not-always-successful effort to do things the way I thought they might be done in a more Goddess-centered paradigm. If I didn't understand it before, I finally grasp how crucial it is to believe in what you do.
So in the midst of that tipping point, I seem to have started to channel-write some material about one of my previous lifetimes. I mean, literally, I started this on Thursday. I'm hand-writing it and have no idea what this will lead to, whether something here in my blog or another outlet. Leaves are falling like snow.
