After so many deep and mystical posts, today I'll just catch up with a few threads and practicalities.
I forgot to mention that my computer problem was solvable -- at least for now -- with the purchase of an external keyboard. It took me a few trips to the store to figure out what to do, but I am thankful for a relatively simple fix, although my reflexive instinct to move my hands "up" to type is being challenged in the move "down". I am immensely fortunate in having such minor problems to deal with on this Saturday.
My health thing has been the vehicle for such an enormous revelation that I am holding off on writing about it here until I can do so adequately. And I'm still in healing mode -- would like it completely in the rearview mirror. I haven't forgotten it.
I'm writing something on the side (handwritten) that is so surprising and powerful that I'm not sure what to say except that I need to keep doing this the old fashioned way, which is how it seems to want to come out, and then assess what the next step with it should be.
Today, I'm attending a holiday festival, and tomorrow, a holiday get-together. When I am in the right frame of mind, I have been listening to carol services and choral music online, but as has been the case for years, being a new paradigm girl in an old paradigm holiday season is challenging. For a short moment here and there, I resonate with the old songs, but when that passes, it is over. Right this minute I seem to need silence more than almost anything, including listening to good talks by my peeps. If, indeed, the world is about to change utterly in about a week, then I guess I need to simply walk through it in my own way...getting up early and taking a walk and bringing in the newspaper, shoveling snow, cooking meals, puttering around with odd house chores, and writing, writing, writing. I sense that my life is, indeed, in the process of a major change, but I cannot act until my vision of it is clear. Patience...
Wishing you a beautiful December Saturday...and Sunday!
