I guess it isn't terribly surprising that in the last few days, a few substantial things have happened relative to what I spoke about last time, the "infinity loop" that I have been in throughout this lifetime, until a few days ago. The first is recognizing (from a somewhat different perspective than I have explored before) how this story explains my very, very limited success in the old paradigm which we are now leaving. I don't say this to excuse or validate any aspect of my unusual journey. But any farmer will tell you that seeds need to be attentively (even lovingly) tended if they are to blossom and grow. I won't explore this any further -- let's face it, that image was breaking into a million pieces when I wrote my last post, three days ago. I'll let those ragged shards disintegrate entirely, shall I?
In the middle of the night last night, I found myself trying to articulate what the horizontal "8" infinity loop would be all about if my other reference point was the Goddess, not my father (or the larger construct we have been in until now). For someone so Goddess-centered, I don't experience Her visually. I'm not (at least at the moment) inspired by ancient imagery or statuary of the Divine Feminine, so my outside reference point is more an amorphous but powerful feeling of Love, Beauty, Support, Harmony, and Wisdom.
I tried to imagine Her first words upon my birth into this world -- or rebirth. "Welcome, beautiful Liz. Welcome Home. You are meant to be here. Your unique gifts of self-expression, beauty and musical harmony are just what this world sorely needs, and we are anticipating with enthusiasm seeing how you will use your gifts in this lifetime. We will do everything in our considerable power to nurture, support, and smooth the path you take toward developing these gifts and sharing them with the world. Know that We love you and are always with you." So I see (and feel in my heart) that these words are fertile soil for me. I am like a seed lovingly planted and then carefully watered, drained and exposed to adequate warmth. I am comfortable in my skin, and take the time necessary to practice my gifts and discern the best way to use them for the world's benefit. As the band of energy whirls behind me and around to my side, heading organically back into the world, I find myself sharing my gifts, my ideas, my creative output, and doing it joyfully, with excitement, with gratitude, and in the hope that my sharing is helpful to people, wildlife and planet. As this buzz of activity crosses in front of me and reaches earth's beings, my gifts are warmly welcomed. It's not so much a case of wanting or receiving praise or adulation. I just experience warm acceptance and gratitude. Other beings delight in seeing spiritual potential being reached. My actions have added new Goddess values to the earth, so when the energy of my gifts swirls around and reaches Her again, She is even more warm and welcoming, proudly saying "well done!", and urging me to continue to create, to continue to find new ways to embody and express Love, beauty, harmony, and peace. And so a new and far more fulfilling "Infinity Loop" continues...
Wow.
I hope, dear reader, that if it is right for you, you will insert your name into this narrative, and identify your best gifts for these emerging times. Whether they are in the arts or writing, or healing, or teaching, or community-building, or care for Nature, or spirituality...what could all of us achieve if we genuinely imagined that our truest gifts were welcome, that our truest gifts were of value, and that we were truly welcome? Fully and unconditionally?
