I feel the need to write as often as possible right now, not quite "as if there is no tomorrow" (although that quality has never felt more real), but simply because things are moving so quickly, without and within. Yes, I am on retreat, but I have listened to the news once or twice a day, and understand the nature of events in the collective. Things are being turned completely topsy-turvy.
So far, there has been one major takeaway from these three days. On many occasions, I have noticed (and expressed here) that my life has been almost literally the polar opposite to the one I would have liked, in just about every area. The paradigm we have been living in has seemed like a mile-high brick wall, blocking every well-meaning step to a female mystic's self-actualization. Making my kind of dreams come true has seemed at best, unlikely, usually, impossible.
Yet with everything shifting, bricks seem to be falling out of the wall. The imposing barrier feels mutable. I'm not quite at the point of believing that I can finally, easily, create my reality, but I think I will walk away tomorrow believing that the unlikeliest life outcomes could possibly happen now. I think I will walk away with a softer heart, believing that in the Age of Aquarius, new kinds of paths will open. I don't have a laundry list of demands, just sort of a warm-hearted "what if"? I have a smile, not a determined grimace, on my face.
And I am convinced that some of these unlikely outcomes could manifest on the bigger stage as well. It's easy to let one's brain leap to certain conclusions. Yes, the reality of what is happening "is what it is". But what today's truth will lead to, we don't know yet. What would be the best outcome for Mother Earth? This moment's scenario seems far from that, and yet we cannot see beyond the falling bricks. Perhaps She is beginning, Herself, to sense an opening for Her unlikeliest outcomes to materialize!
