This week, I did something old, but in a new way. For the moment, I'm not going to say much more about it because I have a lot to process. I recognize that on occasion, I have promised my readers that I'll update them soon, only to forget or move on to other things, possibly driving you crazy! I apologize. I don't think this will be one of those situations, but I'm someone who has to give ideas time to completely formulate before telling friends or readers. To go back to a recent blog metaphor, I need to keep the cake in the oven until it is completely baked.
Suffice it to say that at this moment when "going back to when things were better" is such a thing, it is really crucial in my personal path to discern the difference between "going back" in a new way, and thinking old thoughts or simply re-walking old ground. There is a difference between taking action to enrich your life and world, and taking action focused on going backward to heal old personal pain (as important as such healing is). There is also a difference between simple nostalgia, and connecting with roots for the purpose of greater stability growing upwards. Particularly as my identity as an "anchoress for the Goddess" becomes clearer and stronger, I find I am less interested in outward opportunities and more interested in that energetic tether connecting me downwards to the earth's core, and upwards to the outer edges of our universe and beyond. Where will such grounding happen most efficiently and effectively?
The northeast is cold and rainy, and there has even been snow in the mountains. There's such a strange contrast between the lush greenery of trees, fields, lawns and shrubs, and the need to put on a turtleneck and a winter jacket. Mother Nature is doing what She needs to do, probably thwarting a lot of people's beginning-of-summer long weekend plans. It is another reminder (lest we still need one) that we are not in charge.
