The other evening, there was a brief hour or so of bright sun late in the afternoon. Needless to say, it was welcome, and quite spectacular, the sun being lowish in the sky and casting a rather orange glow on a suddenly brilliant green world. The "brief hour" was preceded and followed by an intermediary hour or so of waffling back and forth between grey/showery and partly sunny -- and then by about 7, we had returned to rain, quite torrential as I was going to sleep.
I've mentioned that I have discovered some wonderful New Age figures online who share my long-term enthusiasm for the future of the earth, and humanity itself. Their take on the spiritual leap we are in the midst of is very similar to mine. I cannot tell you what it means to finally find some kindred spirits after the long journey I've been on.
Yet there is usually one significant difference -- as ever, I seem to fall between some cracks. For the most part, these folks speak of Source Energy, Infinite Intelligence, etc. For years, I also tried to use such neutral terms, but they were too detached for me. There are writers in the post-monotheistic world who still speak of God in the traditional way. And then there are certainly Goddess-centered women who focus on connecting with Her through healing, Nature, clothing, rituals, etc. I love the immanency of this, and yet there isn't always the broader vision, the discussion of future trends that my intellect needs.
For me, the Age of Aquarius is the Age of the Goddess and Her values. I specifically see myself as one of Her representatives. Ultimately, do I think that the Creator can be limited by any human understandings of gender? Of course not. But although I was never a mother in this lifetime, I am a woman. I have felt the pain and rejection of the female experience and the Earth experience in my own body for over 70 years. I can't seem to completely slough off that pain, dismissing it as simple growing pains/birth pains in our spiritual leap upwards. I'm personally not the most "feeling" person in the world (thinking is my home base) -- but I do feel, and I believe the feminine face of the Divine has been feeling all along, the pain of war, "man's inhumanity to man", torture, the thoughtless use of the Earth, and the cruel shedding of the blood of humans and animals. She has cried often, and still does. Once the Aquarian age is fully established, there will be fewer occasions for literal tears, but tears right now are valid. (And can any of us imagine hundreds of female spiritual leaders gathering to choose a leader, with most of the world intensively following the event? Can we imagine female spiritual figures being that influential? I cannot.) I rarely cry, but today the mother's tears have caught up with me, for all these reasons.
