Back on March 7 of last year, I wrote a piece on this subject ("Reference/Reverence") and I will try not to repeat myself. But here it is, a year later, and this subject is even more resonant. There is so much in the news that is horrifying and repugnant, so much (more than ever) that is the polar opposite of what I believe in, and it is almost impossible not to rise up, internally or externally. Even putting aside the decision about whether or not to enter into this societal conflict, there is the issue of how one is seen by people outside oneself. When you don't stand up on one side or another, you can be perceived as apathetic, spineless, supportive of the status quo...and all sorts of things that you aren't. Trying to explain that you are "post-duality" doesn't necessarily communicate anything but pompousness. I haven't yet dared to tell anyone I've already lived through this time and understand what will work and what will not -- that even makes me feel pompous!
But ultimately, here's the thing: to respond to the evil that anyone outside me chooses to do forces me to spend my own (ever-shortening) life-time referencing that evil. I am focusing on it, making it more alive by my energy, and all that attention brings me closer than I'd like to "reverencing" it. At this moment of my life, if I have any passion at all (and I recently spoke of how that emotion has been hard for me to access outside English church music), I intend to focus it only on the Goddess and her values. I must "spend" my Love currency on Beauty, Mother Earth, Community, and this extraordinary galaxy-wide spiritual transition upwards. Love can be my only reference and reverence, the only use of my time.
I've been wearing a silver/amethyst ring that when purchased, I called my Goddess ring, and I was wearing it on the third finger of my right hand because I couldn't quite bring myself to wear it on the left. But yesterday, I switched it over, the symbolism being that I am now (and perhaps have always been and always will be) wedded to Her. An anchoress for the Goddess, whether I live next to a cathedral, a tree, a lake, or a river. And in a way that I don't think I've completely understood, I woke up this morning really, really understanding that the Aquarian age has started, and Love is the only path forward, for me or for the world. The time I have been expecting and anticipating isn't in the future, it is now. It is here.