Maybe I'll finally do it. "It" being, write four or five days a week rather than two. I've headed in that direction several times, but kept reverting backwards for some reason. I think in large part it was in order to spare my readers my intensity. But, hey, no one is being forced to read, and now that I will be sharing my channelled material with you, at least periodically, it is no longer necessary to split my journalling life between handwritten and typed. That may still happen from time to time, but not as often...
I am in the midst of reading an extraordinary book, Reinventing Eve, by Kim Chernin (1987, Perennial). Yet again, I'm humbled (even a little embarrassed) that there were fabulous women way ahead of me on this Goddess road...this is one of those books that expresses the spirit of my journey so perfectly, I cannot believe the author wasn't on my shoulder the whole time. Of course, her journey was unique to her...with completely different specifics. She has brought an insight to Eve that I literally never considered -- pride, almost, that Eve was disobedient. Eve thought for herself. She wanted knowledge and understanding, and literally just reached for it.
Reading it and the dozen or so other books from the '80's that have meant so much to me, it's almost impossible to imagine that during that decade, I had barely consciously begun my own path to myself, and was completely unaware of the rich material being generated by other women. I was living in New York City, working in the corporate world, studying illustration at Parsons School of Design at night (as well as singing in a choral group), paying back my college loans, and still trying like crazy to find a viable path through our modern construct. I had "given up" on the world of English church music, and hadn't yet recognized that it could be well nigh impossible to transfer one's passions willy-nilly, from music to studio art. Yes, I did some spiritual exploration (yoga, Buddhism, metaphysics) but never seriously considered aiming toward the north star of the Goddess. I had been immersed in journalism and academia; until well into the '90's I was uncomfortable that a focus on the divine feminine might be unfairly slanted against men. Intellectually, I still feel that way...but the imperative of trying to fill in the gaps in our spiritual world (and my heart) is much stronger. I've been silenced, other women have been silenced, and the Goddess continues to be silenced. I'm thankful for the tatty used books that keep coming my way, representing hope and the clear pure voice of love and wisdom.
