I start this new year of 2025 strangely at peace -- with myself and the world, as it spins into a major reboot.
I'm finally at peace with just about every aspect of who I am, after a lifetime of self-questioning. Even now, having moved back to the area I grew up in, I haven't yet found anyone who fully "gets" my things about England and English church music, or my particular way of being aligned with the Goddess. On a very basic level, I still haven't found my tribe or tribes, although I do have one slim lead as the new year gets started. And perhaps because of my age or the trajectory of my experience, I feel like I have crossed over to "the other side", where most days this no longer bothers me. I don't have to wait for "me" to be validated by anyone else's understanding or approval. If I ever had time for that, I don't now, as I near 70. I love who I have become.
And I'm as much at peace as one can be with the absolute insanity of the world. Perhaps this is because I can look at myself ever more honestly and recognize that I would be incapable of murder, much less mass murder or genocide. I would be incapable of creating or owning weapons, or of stealing from people, or of ownership of "property" on Mother Earth. I have no impulse for power over other people, animal beings or the Earth. Etc. The fact that other people feel comfortable with these activities is something I really don't believe I can control much less change, any more than others have been capable of changing me. It is not a perfect peace, but it is peace.
Lastly, I'm at peace with the increased amount of "channeling" I am likely to be presenting in this blog moving forward. I am at peace with whatever derision it may bring my way. It's probably the last major truth about myself that I will reveal here, and it is time. I've been channelling in my personal journal for over thirty years -- asking questions and receiving answers. From whom? Ultimately, I don't know, but I'm ready to present the material that comes to me as a form of living in the questions.
So here's to a year of being "at peace", and trying to hold onto that no matter what happens! May you experience the same thing in 2025.
